On crushes, im sure everyone has had at least 1"real" friggin' crush in his or her life. Im talking about a real crush, not the pipichigin na crush "uy pare hot yan" o yung "he's so cute!" knda crushes. Not one of those "pangarap lang crushes". The one you see really often and talk to in the most normal way possible and at the same time contain everything inside you. The one thats so near yet so far (forgive me, ang cliche na nun).
The person is your friend, a close one or a "potentially" close one. You want to treat them different from everyone else but its so hard. "He/She cant find out" you tell yourself, "dapat d halata"... So you live together and either grow ever closer or drift farther apart. This all depends of course sa "diskarte mo" or factors in the social context both of you are in. But mostly on "diskarte", "dapat may diskarte", "dapat magaling dumiskarte". So its mostly always your fault for everything that happens, you can blame this, you can blame that but it all boils down to the fact that everything affects you so much because you have a "real crush"
There are 3 kinds of people in the world
- Mga magaling dumiskarte
- Mga bano dumiskarte
- Mga di alam na bano pala sila dumiskarte
which am i? take a guess :D *hint* im single and loving it :D sausage fest for 2 please!
Therefore the world of a person with a real crush is turned by the wonderful power of "diskarte". Your friggin' world revolves around your friggin' crush na "dinadamoves" mo. "dinadamoves" is another term for diskarte, and (i have just discovered this year) is "chugchug". Though these terms look like they fall into "men's locker room slang", women are also gulity of "chugchuging", they just have sweeter terms for it :D
Whichever of the 3 types of people you fall under there are only two consequences of "dumadamoves".
- You win, kayo na! bastah maging kayo! everything beyond that (breaking up etc) is not a result of your "chugchug". In a relationship things are different ok? bastah they are, i wouldnt know, but ive been told they are :D "on crushes" nga lang db?
- You lose, these include but are not limited to : "friends na lang tayo", "your not my type", "your like a brother/sister", "you?!?", magkalabuans, walkouts, neverseethemagainiosis and others. The point is, you dont get your goal.
All 3 have more or less an equal chance of arriving at any of the 2 above results.
People tend to forget sometimes that your crush is a person too and that they too have a world in which revolves around sumthing, may it be God, school, money, career, or "diskarte". Thats why when it comes to crushes and diskarte, kahit gaano ka kagaling, gwapo, maganda, mabait, matalino, pangit, baho, masama o bobo... Diskate-ing will bring you more or less an unpredictable result, think of it as a game of "Kapamilya Deal or no Deal". the Briefcases are your every crucial "chugchug" choices which may bring you closer or nearer, the banker is a rough representation of outside forces which are results of your decisions (society, feelings ng crush mo etc) they often make you chose. "deal or no deal?" "Go or stop" "more or not". Kris is a filthy freaking rich woman na nang dun lang, d kompleto ang gameshow o dramang emo kapag wala si Kris :D And thats how the world goes round
"Life is like opening a briefcase, you expect to find money, but more often than not find an ironically placed pair of underwear" - miggy de leon
In a sense, its kinda fun having a crush that powerful. All the daydreaming, the "diskarte" planning, the "diskarte plan" in motion, score! :D How your life revolves around that one crush and how enjoyable it can get. But there is a saying:
"If a person can give so much happiness, they can also give you so much of sadness" - miggy de leon
(im like so inspired OMG)
so if you win/ are winning or lose/ are loosing creates happyhappyjoyjoy or not
So its a big risk, you bet your happiness not to mention your relationship with that person on some "chugchug".. why? Is it worth it? "There are times when i feel like that person is worth anything...". a typical emo answer :D
Personally, i miss having a crush.... "the risk" has been driving me a way lately... i dont like taking risks, i dont like focusing on one person, i dont like chasing after someone who would not do the same for me, i dont like wasting my time ( as harsh as it may sound )....
On crushes...
Is it worth it?
DISCLAIMER : everything above is a LIE 
