On Christmas

 

How was your christmas? I bet you had loads of fun getting richer and fatter. :) My cousins Arianna (5) and the twins Kitty and Cathy (both 6)

I diddnt really feel christmas this year, i first expressed these feeling to Mikee Tan after my exposure trip. "I dont feel christmas coming up..." We talked about how we stopped believing in santa, hehe... I wont tell you his story, you should ask it from him :D For me, i gradually stoped believing in santa. Well, it all really started out that one year when i just didnt send a letter for a gift, i dont really remember why. I got a gift still the same, a pair of shoes which i continue to wear until today. Along with these shoes came a letter from "Santa" saying that he was amazed at how much i have grown yada yada.... Basically it was sort of a goodbye letter saying that i'm too old for him and that letting go would bring me to the next stage of my life.

From that year onward i never looked forward to receiving a gift from anyone. Aside from a Ps2, an Ipod and the yet to be in my possesion laptop and super suave Suv/scooter i didnt ask anything from anyone. Dont get me wrong, i appreciate every gift given to me, from the oodles and oodles of underwear to the stacks of scientific calculators. Kitchie (my hamster) is living proof of how much i appreciate gifts. I appreciate gifts, i just dont look forward to getting them.

Now would be an appropriate time to add a paragrapg about my opinions on gift giving :D I like giving gifts, I just dont have the money most of the time. NUFF SAID!

Contrary to popular belief, Juan Miguel De Leon is almost always suffering from lack of money mostly because of his stomach which cleverly hides its true nature :P

I didnt feel christmas this year, there was really no excitement during september which i usually exerience. This excitement was mostly due to the fact of the many christmas parties coming up not to mention all the food that would be inbound!

There were christmas parties this year! earliest of which was my MeCo block party which was loads of fun, an experience i wont easily forget :D R21 also had one, with mam jasmine :D 4B didnt have a party mostly because of me, hehehe, It was supposed to be at my place but on the date they wanted to celebrate it (december 21) was the first day of the A-days batch A35. I couldnt miss that! Had another one with the "family friends" which was fun except for that weird bit with those hired professional karoke singers. Then the family parties rolled along. We celebrated in my Tito's vacation house in Tagaytay for my father's side. We had an "amazing race" thing going on there :D Me and Louie won 2nd place! bagging 15k home! which my mother took away soon after :P For my mother's side was the traditional "sa bahay ni lolo" thing with relatives coming back from the states. All the "apos" had to perform something, i played the bassline of "carol of the bells" for louie.

Staffing for A35 was fun :D ill go fulltime again next batch!

The food in all above mentioned parties were awesome!

I wasnt able to attend the days party because my mom wouldnt drive me all the way to commonweath :P

The parties were fun sure, but i didnt feel christmas....

I usually feel christmas at the end of september, but this year i hardly felt it at all. why? I mostly blame school :D the second long test in Ma20 really took up alot of my thinking time which i could have devoted to feeling christmas, that plus my en12 paper :P

I did feel it a bit, during days, but i wasnt able to stay full time because of other commitments...

Maybe its because we're growing older and alot more things preoccupy our minds too much. Life gets more complicated as one grows older.

Or the lack of quezo de bola... either or

Its very uhm.... disheartening ( if such a word exists?) Shouldn't i be extremely happy? since its my first christmas after days! Its Kuya Jess's Birthday!?!? I feel bad for not being happy enough for him on his day.

I spent the rest of the vacation at home, struggling to do homework. Stuff that could be done in less than an hour took me days because of my constant procrastinating and the existence of "Dawn of War: Dark Crusade" and "Marvel Ultimate Alliance" (thanks Don!, i finished it already! me n louie stayed up until 5am to do it too! but the PS2 hanged and well, you get the picture) Yuck, im still "totoy" after all. My annotated biblio is still missing one more source...

I really rediscovered my roots hahah

Well, my overall point is that, i wasnt able to celebrate christmas properly... maybe next year

If there is someone who really enjoyed christmas its the kids for obvious reasons... i really wish i was like that every christmas

So Christmas is still here, it'll probably end right before valentines or something... The lights still flicker outside my window and false stars stil attract passers by... Songs still echo throughout the halls and commercials continue to bother primetime viewing..

Do i have to be "isip bata" to enjoy christmas? I know alot more now than way back then, i think i have a better understanding of christmas for me to appreciate it now... but... i dunno

Maybe next year

Merry Christmas Guys