On the Cold

Its been cold lately. Started last last tuesday I think ((jan 30). It was our chem long test and i had freaking cold attacks again coz' our water heater at home mercilessly decided not to wake up that day. I got better the next morning though, nothing a good batch of berocca couldn't fix...

Valentines is approaching... Its getting harder to sleep and even harder to wake up. I find myself in an embryo position every five minutes to fight of the cold and to revive my numbing legs. Apparently two blankets arent enough...

Is there a connection? between valentines and these sudden "cold wave"?

Is the weather really REAL? or is it a reminder of the fast approaching "single awareness day". I really believe in the fact that one those not need "the one" to be happy. But the cold makes me feel more lonely everyday, i guess being grounded for 3 weeks for coming home drunk is beginning to take its toll on me...

This is turning out to be a "I need a hug" in disguise

I dont want it to go that way... Im just laying it all out...

Not having so much luck in my love life (whatevers left of it). I used to think that competition only manifested itself in academics, work and in the market. Apparently, life seems to be a competition im loosing. Maybe its the high standards i set for myself... Or the fact that im on a loosign streak  in the game of love

A lovely song though... "Game of Love" by Santana feat. Michelle branch use to be on my mental playlist. Now Akon and Eminem's "Smack that" distracts my derivatives and destroys my lewis structures..

I bet Lovers arent feeling the cold. I think im the only one who's making a big deal of it. I cant move properly, my body is stiff.

I should wear a jacket more often

I think i cut my hair at the wrong time

Im an embryo out of the womb sitting in front of keyboard. Hammering away at the keys to keep the blood flowing. "Kahit walang magbabasa"...

What is it with lovers and freshman college year? What is it with graduation heralding the end of the Glorious Days of High schools were in every monday was a celebration day of the previous weekend's victories? Am i getting that old?

I think The Nostalgia haunting makes me feel colder than it actually is.

Cant wait for A36, i need to get my mind of alot of things..

"Sucess is Commemorable, Failure is Remembered"

Its a quote from "Dawn of War: Dark Crusade". a video game that only me and a single block mate seem to appreciate. It makes a lot of sense doesnt it? the quote... The coldness of shame in defeat.

I need something to smack me back in to shape.

Maybe after "Single Awareness Day"

Priorities and neccesities... Having someone to hold seems to ba a neccesity nowadays. I think its been commercialized so much by TV and movies that it may be a bit overrated, rushed and exaggerated. Most people cant handle other people properly anymore. Apparently, Im no exemption.

Iv'e heard a million true to life love stories, alot of them as twisted as the last. Some so succesful as if their the stuff of movies and legends while others so *ahem* unstable that flags and banners clash overhead. They all seem so unreal. I might have a love story or two, but if you heard them, you'd find them unbelievable too.

" Sa panaginip na lang kita maisasayaw..."

I think the eraserheads knew alot about love. Their song "Pare ko" seems to speak out to alot of college boys...

Whats wrong with looking out for yourself?

Iv'e realized that im not mature enough for a commitment.

Its Funny how a lot of people are Emo over being lonely or not being succesful in their love life but always fail to remember that there are other problems out there. "How can i pay my tuition" "My [insert important family member here] is sick/dieing/in need of help" etc.. Not to mention all the crap happening in the world.

Mr. David the Omnipotent has fallen ill, No one seems to care. Last i heard is that he's gonna be undergoing some operdations. He's really old. Been teaching math at La Salle for almost a lifetime. My meager success in calculus now i attribute to him and his advance caluculus lessons in 4th year HS. This man had love, he loved math. He graduated from BS math! but you knew he was unhappy... He is well beyond retirement age yet chooses not to leave... La Salle wouldn't give him a retrirement package to match his loyalty. They keep him in La Salle, trapping him with the promise of a salary increase the longer he stays. Can he stay? he already has a hard time negotiating a stairwell of 6 floors! Can he still battle the unrelenting tide of "bulakbol" seniors that are foolish enough to be excited for college?

How can you compete with that?

The Ateno - La Salle rivalry was born because of "love", or whatever twisted opinion of love these exclusive boy schools seem to have programmed in their minds leaving their heart's lacking. Most boys treat girls as trophies, and single awareness day as "trophy display day". There have been many battles of Ateneo - La Salle which have gone beyond the hardwood of Araneta. Wars in katipunan, ortigas, makati. Love or rather Competition creates undesirable incentives...

Religion seems to be a bottomless well of love. if done right, people find a lot of solace in their worship...

People seem to breath on love, it gives life color. Just like in that movie "Pleasantville"

Is it that Important? Love?

Or is it just something to smack away the cold...

"Educate men with out Fate and you make them but clever devils" - Anonymous