My soup smiled at me

My soup smiled at me before i took my next spoonful. This happened earlier this week at "Tapsi ni Vivian", in their "bottomless soup" thingy. Its bulalo, i think. This is the second time food smiled at me... the last time it was my beer! I didnt have a camera at the time so this was taken with my un-uber cell phone camera.

My friend said its a sign that maybe i should smile more often, that i "should return the favor"... maybe yeah

 

soup and beer make me smile. they're two very good things.

ive been getting a lot of "are you ok? you look pretty down" kinda comments this week. Do i really look sad? is it because im not smiling as much as my beer and soup? maybe its because there arent alot of happy things happening this week? would that justify to you people my "aura of sadness"? whenever im just looking out the window or thinking very hard about something does not mean i have a "problem" okay? its not that im shunning away your concern for or whatever... but those comments make me feel sadder coz it means "one more thing that doesnt make me smile" on the score board.

I just have a lot of things on my mind ignited by a few things that happen lately... Some stuff around august, Ondoy, Finals becoming optional, Ateneo Winning, Bonfire, the upcoming blue roast, my facebook getting hacked and a bunch of idle moments that should not have been so idle but they were coz megeh = fail. Im thinking of a lot of things i do not know how to share with people coz it "might" offend them or whatever.

i just have stuff on my mind... and it ain't the damn "seniour syndrome" or everybody's favourite: "love life" so dont talk to me if you want to talk about those.

I dont follow the series "how i met your mother" but i enjoy wathcing an episode when i come across one. The episode im gonna talk about is pretty old i think so no spoilers here i guess. It was thanksgiving episode where Robyn and Ted just broke up and were going to an awkward stage.

i felt awkward just watching them, seriously!

Ted said something cool there (a friend pointed it out to me, i didnt catch it the first time around)

it was something like:

"Friendship is an involuntary reflex"

and you know what... It makes alot of damn sense. I dont need to explain it but it does, don't it?

So im rethinking alot of things and decisions coz i cant seem to let go of them due to "current events". So im in this slump, i dont think you can help me... so just understand okay?

I'll smile when i want to. In the mean time, my beers and soups can do the smiling for me

 

My Beer Smiled at Me

my beer smiled at me last saturday evening. Out of the foamy goodness of San Mig Light (im a gay drinker, forgive me) a big grin parted the bubbles and stopped me from taking a sip.

That was the last photo i took that day as my the batteries of my camera died out. It was a long day for me and my camera; SAVE! campaign in the morning, History Trip to Binondo in the afternoon then finally Ia's 21st b-day bash. My camera couldnt handle it. Maybe mr. San Mig scared the spark out of it.

I like beer cause its relaxing. I prefer San Mig Light cause its what im used to. All i need is one (or rather, all i can take is one!) and im pretty much set for the night.

It was nice to drink a bit again last weekend, its a nice brake from everything... I really wanna take a break from everything. I hope i can clear up the weekend of the 25th, but by the looks of things, thats no gonna happen. Its the weekend of the next A-days batch and i really don't want to miss that! And its also Raymond's last event as Ecosoc's president... O Lord please grant me another weekend!

Weekdays suck soooo much! I go to school almost everyday to learn almost nothing as i sleep through every class. Pol sci? asleep.. Philo? dozing off.. Theo? out cold... Histo? heads on the table... Eco? in a slump at the back of the room...

argh, i hate school

You know that song of Stacie Orrico? the one when she was still kinda new on the scene? "There's gotta to be more to life than out each and every TEMPORARY HIGH that satisfies me". I'm afraid thats what im doing lately... Living out temporary highs to escape the drudgery of school life. Ateneo isnt as fun as it used to be

I wake up... go to school... sleep... go home... sleep.... I think ive lost so many hours to sleeping in class... And those temporary highs are getting fewer and far between.  There are hardly any highlights to my days lately, its only on the weekend (if the workload permits) that i can escape my downers. The Binondo Trip was a nice change of pace, but once it was over, the high was gone and down i went again.

I'm afraid if i dont get my steady fix of smiling beers, ill stop smiling altogether... The PS3 can only do so much nowadays and everyones so busy (myself included) that theres hardly any common time left for good old fashioned, wholesome fun.

Maybe i need to exercise more often, i hear it releases some kinda happy chemical in the body... yeah, maybe ill Jog on thurs, after class if the wheather allows.

I dunno, the balance isnt in my favor, there arent enough encouraging things happening to counter these downers. Im getting tired of lving... The short term is getting so much more important to me nowadays that it obscures the long term. How can i look forward to the future when i know tomorrow is gonna suck as well as the day after that.

I cant wait for this Sem to end

I cant wait to get FIlibits off the Ground

I just cant wait anymore.

is there something wrong with multiply?

cant seem to upload my stuff

You know whats funny...

There so many things in life that make life not worth living

Help me! answer this Vote on something for my Marketing class

Which slogan would best suit a new kind of food product: ready to eat Filipino food bits which you could add to your favourite dish (such as rice, lugaw, pasta, etc) to give it some Filipino food flavour (like adobo, beef tapa etc) in a similar manner as sprinkling bacon bits on your pasta?

• Puts a Filipino twist to any dish

 

 12

• No cook, no heat, just eat

 

 6

• Sarap ng pinoy, para sa moderndong pinoy

 

 3

• Lasang pambansa sa kahit anong handa

 

 14

• Itaktak ang sarap at lasapin ang lasang pinoy

 

 2

looking back... mulitply or facebook?

i caught myself reading my old multiply blogs... Ive written my fair share of blogs havent I? after almost two hours and I'm still not done... ill stop, for now at least.

I must've been pretty inspired to have written all of those... Theres always an event that triggers these creative splurges, No event seems to do that to me as of late... well, reading my past blogs has, but that doesnt really count as a real life event...

I liked the way i write (or should i say "wrote"?) before, its like im so clever yet taglishly jologs with a tinge of emo-ness... and my happy blogs were really happy, yeah, there were events that really made me that happy.

Why dont i write that way anymore? maybe is because of the reasons why i post the blogs in the first place. People usualy have private journals yet i post my blogs online on multiply... So deep inside, i wrote not only because i was inspired by some event but because i wanted attention. Every little blog was some kind of sick comment farm, and i really loved it when i knew people actually read and reacted to my posts... it made me feel like my opinions were of some value to them, value to the point that they'd go out of their way to finish reading my blogs and post a reply. I really liked that, it made me feel good aobut myself even if the blog was emo(ish).

The same goes for all my other posts especially my photo albums! i'd always make an effort to cleverly caption every picture so that people wouldnt just comment on the picture but the caption as well. I took pictures of everything just so i'd have material to post on multiply...

But then came along facebook

and well... people are more active there now i guess... and multiply cant keep up

and thats just sad... so many memories here on multiply and now they're gathering dust. Quite a few of my contacts still multiply and post pics and stuff... comments on my posts (be it an album or a blog) became less and less... I actually post my pics on both facebook and multiply, the exact same albums... haha

My facebook album get like... 50 comments while the multiply version just got one... that should be the same right? a comment is a comment? for some reason... it doesnt feel the same... posting on facebook and receiveing those comments doesnt make me feel good. when you post on facebook and tag people in photos, people click on the link to check it out. But its like the album isnt mine, its like some public gallery where they comment and comment like they dont know who posted it in the first place. It isnt like multiply where people visit my "unique looking profile" (cause of the themes) and post comments in a manner that kind of refer or address me, a manner that makes me feel noticed. Its just isnt like that on facebook... Or maybe it is but i just dont get the same feeling...

maybe if facebook had a blog feature i'd get into it, itd be be more personal and more "me" but... i dunno, its becoming harder and harder for me to stay on multiply... People more actively facebook now, and where more people are at, thats where more people will go.

Its just not the same

i feel like ive grown up with multiply. My college life is chronicled here and if you took the time to go through my first posts all the way up to now, you could see how ive grown and the joys and hardships that i have passed. Thats never gonna be on facebook...

its like ending a chapter... as highschool was to friendster i guess college is to multiply... but college isnt over yet!!!! and facebooooookkkkk :| i must admit, the apps are fun and all but... thats all it is, fun...

My Multiply = Me... my facebook isnt me yet...i dunno, id really hate to abandon multiply for facebook but its like posting here is becoming more and more futile...

Its kinda ironic though that you can kinda sync multiply to facebook but not the other way around. Its like a "backwards compatibility" kind of thing... and facebook is the one thats coming out as the new more advanced way of social networking... And it probably is...

haha, i dunno... how am i suppose to feel about this? ve lost track as to where this blogh is going and whats the point im suppose to be making haha

 

 plant a comment in my comment farm :)

im going to copy this to facebook, just to see how it turns out there

M.T.

MT

 

This post will go unnoticed

Like the so many other things before it

 

As always, attention is elsewhere

People to meet, places to go, things to do

 

It always that that that

And never this this this

 

Never being in the center

Gives a whole new meaning to the word

 

Marginalized

 

Margins, what are they for?

Its that line that separates

 

Important content from

The limbo that is

 

The space, the blank the nothing

And everything beyond “paper’s edge”

 

Oblivion the abyss

Nothing to do with the paper

 

What’s it like beyond the margin?

The margin of paper is one thing

 

But what about the margin

Of the lives of people around you?

 

Do you know what it feels like?

To be on the existential margin

 

Of the world

 

To live in that limbo

Between existence and nothing?

 

Existing by definition… by principal

But never being included with the rest

 

Do you know what it feels like?

No, of course YOU don’t

 

Marginalized Theory