Achievements that matter... I mean, yeah sure i graduated... but almost everyone did... so that really doesn't count. Yeah, I graduated with a minor in enterprise development because i was part of the SOMBA (school of management business development program) but I hardly got by. Incorporating was real hard, plus I barely scrounged up all the legal stuff. On top of that, the business wasn't sustainable even though on paper it was. As a leader, i failed to make it anything other than an excuse to get a "minor"
Then the start of my working years. Scored a management trainee program at SUN Cellular... seemed like a great opportunity at the time. Though I am learning alot and exposed to a great number of things, most of it is very industry or even company specific. I do alot at work, and go home late almost every night, but work these past few years is "superficial" at best. "Marami akong ginagawa, pero wala akong nagagawa". What I mean is that although I do my part of the work at SUN Cellular, I've yet to significantly contribute the the company's business. I'm afraid this experience is eroding the base of my now cloudy career path. It's strange... sometime ago, early on in my job, I seemed to idealistic of what I do and the goals of my work. Its almost two years and those are unrealized.
There are a couple of other things i tried... Franchising for one. Wanted something small and easy to manage on the side. Put up a small Ice Scramble booth in Shaw boulevard, right in front of JRU. It was a grueling process of finding the right franchise package and location for the business. On top of that, negotiating with Franchise company was unnecessarily difficult.Ending up in arguments with our contact. Even then, I was optimistic. I found a high traffic location that wasn't too far away with a land lord that was really accommodating. Everything seemed right... but lots of shit hit the fan. Sales were slow, my one and only employee was an asshole. Even when we started the booth very early on in the scramble trend, things just didn't. We closed up shop with a net loss and hardly any sales were made. I wasn't comfortable losing money that way.
Today i attempted my first marathon today. Got injured on the 25th kilometer. A classic case of runner's knee. Despite the program i joined and the training I did. The 25th km ended it for me. I attempted to limp my way to the finish line. But the race organizers stopped me on the 36th k. "Cut off time" they said.I can confidently say i have the stamina for this. I wasn't tired. My injury stopped me. And because of that, today I chalked up another failure. I'll continue to run after I recover from my injury and try to redeem myself. Maybe I can complete the run united series (at least the 21K runs)
I'm now trying my hand in investments. Going to try investing in the PSEi once the market corrects itself. I learned about investing in indexes after reading "A Random Walk Down Wall Street" by Burton Malkiel. Its not really to make a killing though. Its just supposed to create a nest egg for me in the future to supplement my other investments in mutual funds. I hope to God that these decisions won't kill me like my previous ones.
Needless to say. I'm really down right now. I need a win in my life. Something to say that I am doing something worth doing. I need to think this through. Is this the so called "quarter life crisis" i'm going through? How do you deal with something like this? I need to win, I need to win bad
